CFMC Singers Brazil Outreach Tour 2019 Fundraising

Goal of Fundraising: To sponsor our local community CFMC singers who need financial backup to go to Brazil Tour Outreach with Christian music.

Location: APPLEBEE’S

640 Promenade Blvd Bridgewater, NJ 08807

Tickets: 10

Date& Time: Saturday, March 23rd, 2019, 8am-10am

Contact: (732)581-7584

Daily_christina@yahoo.com

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Meal: pancakes, sausage, scramble eggs and a beverage (coffee, juice, soda or tea)

Letter from Home 1/19/2019: New Understanding of Christianity

Understanding God is a progressive journey, this is true in two thousand years of church history, and also true of my 49 years of Christian life. From being an atheist to becoming a believer and then a pastor; from being an extreme conservative to becoming a charismatic, I have diligently pursued God all along and my mindsets have been changed. The Kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. I kept searching, like a blind person feeling his way across the river, stumbling from time to time. It is also like making donuts, being knead, baked, deep fried, and then having syrup poured on and fillings added, until suddenly the fragrance breaks forth. The process is not easy, I myself do not comprehend, but at long last I have come out of the tunnel, shaken off the mud, joy welled up from the depths of my being, and others cannot understand… I am grateful that I am alive today and I still have a chance to run after the will of God according to the drumbeat of heaven (Heb 10:36). Any price is worth it. When the American west was being developed, on average, one person died every 16 miles, but look at how prosperous the west is today! Years ago when the cross island highway in northern Taiwan was being built, quite a number of those involved also lost their lives or injured, but today tour buses are going through one after another! Anything God desires to have, is worth dying for, do you agree?

What is the progressive revelation of God for this generation? It is “the family’. For 20 years, “Homecoming”(or called Family Journey) has been impacting nations, and the most noticeable was first the “Convergence” at IHOP Kansas City in September and then “Onething”in December, 2018. Mike Bickle has announced that this“Onething”would be the last after 19 years. Also in many other countries, churches are no longer holding big conference, because they heard God say, “I don’t want conferences, I want a family.” 1982 in Cairo, Egypt, with an audible voice God said to Mike Bickle, “I am going to change the understanding of Christianity on the whole earth in one generation.” and Mike acknowledges that today is that generation! The church is no longer an organization, it is a family; no longer membership, but sons and daughters. What’s important is not doing, but being, it is clearer in English—not doing a son, but being a son. Sons and daughters are to receive inheritance because God is our Father! What Jesus accomplished for us on the cross is much more than just being saved and going to heaven, it is family and the Kingdom! It is all God’s doing, I did not choose Him, it is He who chose me. It is He who merged me into a body and adopted me into His royal family! Father is the King, that makes you and I princes and princesses! After the process of being made into fragrant donuts, we get to sit on the throne with the Father and reign with Him! It is unimaginable! The understanding of Christianity has truly become clearer, black and white turns to color, flat now changes to 3D, and today is that generation.

Actually, these understandings and revelations are already in the Bible, but we are too slow to understand. As early as (Isaiah 66:1) God is mourning, “Heaven is my throne, earth is my footstool, where is the house you will build for me? Where will my resting place be?” For two thousand years, we sincerely listen to this and listen to that, earnestly build this and build that, but in the end, it is only what men think, not necessarily what God wants. God’s desire is actually simple: not an organization, not an institution, not membership, but a family. In a family there are parents, children, love, order, peace and joy. The enemy knows what God wants, so he does everything he can to destroy families, relationships, create church divisions, and even try to confuse the gender and distort one’s identity on children. We must build the family to demolish the work of the devil. Turn the hearts of the fathers to their children, and the hearts of the children to their fathers so to remove the curse of the land (Mal. 4:6). But as we look about us, for two thousand years, many pastors are still orphans, how can we build a family? Pastor Grace Chiang of California had a sudden insight one day and said, “I myself am a big orphan and function as the director of an orphanage!” What is an orphan? It is one without parents. Without a farther and mother one becomes an orphan. Church lacks no teachers, Paul said, “Even though you have ten thousand guardians in Christ, you do not have many fathers.” (1 Cor. 4:15) However, we think, who is qualified to be a father? It is true, no parents are perfect, but as long as there are parents, the children feel secure, and each morning the parents do not choose whether they want to be parents for that day. It is a matter of heart (Mal. 4:6).

The enemy is desperately wanting to destroy the family, but the moment man lost in the Garden, God began His mission. God appeared to the forefathers and on Mount Sinai appeared to His chosen people. After the tabernacle was established God spoke from the tabernacle. In the New Testament, Jesus came and made His dwelling among us, His name is Immanuel, God with us. And at the end of Revelation He still says, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and He will live with them. They will be His people, and God Himself will be with them and be their God.” (Rev 21:3) This is the heart of our Dad. There are two aspects to the entire redemptive plan: (1) You and I are saved and become living stones; (2) living stones are being built into a temple, a spiritual house where God can dwell (1 Peter 2:5; Ephesians 2:2). David Demian said, “God’s end time army is not generals, but parents; not soldiers, but sons and daughters, not weapons, but the presence of God.” The most important thing is the family, the relationship, and that is why the Lord repeatedly said, “A new command I give you: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another” (John 13:34-35) And He said, “That all of them may be one, Father, just as You are in me and I am in You. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that You have sent me” (John 17:21)

Our church has taken Bill Johnson’s Leader Development Program online, the very first lesson was “the Kingdom of God is a family.” In recent years more people are talking about the five-fold ministries. Although that is right, I believe the end time church not only needs to restore the five-fold ministry, but more fundamentally, restore the family. The five-fold ministry is not a new organization nor new titles in the church, but mature fathers, mothers, brothers, and sisters in the family. We need to be parents first then become apostles and prophets; be parents first, then be evangelists, pastors and teachers. This is the right order so the family will be healthy, and church will be what God desires.

God’s new wine need to be put in the new wineskin. The new wine is to become a family, a dwelling place for God; it is no longer just ministry, organization or institution. The new wineskin is having God’s perspective, willing to be stretched, letting go of the past pride, inferiority, injuries, offenses, orphan mentality, disobedience, temper, wanting things my way, disunity with others, and even be willing to put down titles and degrees. Although there is nothing wrong with titles, they just are not necessary when you are in a family. I love to visit my son’s home. When he comes back from work, I never hear his wife or children calling him, “Doctor Hsu”. When a CEO of a company returns home, he takes off his office clothes, rolls up his sleeves, helps to take care of the children, dumps the garbage, changes the light bulbs, and cooks a meal…, because he is a father at home! As children get older, they also learn to help, set up the table, wash dishes, vacuum the floor… Everyone plays a part. This is a home. Now we are the mature children of Father God, we have grown up, so shall we come build together a happy and glorious family of our Heavenly Father? This New Year I wanted to give Dad a gift. A few days ago while sharing with Molica, I told her with excitement: “I got an idea!” I used to give myself a nick name “Abbalove”, but this new year I will take another one, “Family builder.” I used to be pleased to know I am the Father’s beloved; but now I am determined to build the family for God. I believe this is God’s destiny for me and the church. Pastor Anton Cruz prayed for us in 2013, “Many fathers and mothers will be raised from this church.” I believe this is also God’s calling for many churches which are maturing.

Pastor Peter Smith from Philadelphia shared an analogy: There are several lanes on the highway, most of the churches are on the “church” lane, a few moved to the “church and Kingdom” lane, and fewer people moved to the “Kingdom and church” lane. This has to do with the leaders’ heart and their understanding of the Father. I can see clearly that I am changing lanes. I also encourage aboriginal leaders to move from the “tribal” lane to the Kingdom lane, and encourage the Taiwanese pastors to shift from the “Taiwanese” lane to the Kingdom lane. The “Chinese” lane, “my needs” lane, and “child-centered” lane…, all need to shift, because only God’s desire is really our pursuit.

It is time to rise up, “for the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed.” (Romans 8:19). I can almost feel the tremor of the ground, the creation can’t wait to see us grow up! Today’s battle between the darkness and the light are turning white-hot. The church must engage in the battle, no longer slumber. We can’t be like the frog stay complacently in a kettle and get slowly cooked alive. The end time army is the parents, children and the presence of God. The spiritual United Nations is taking shape. It’s time we enter our destiny, stand in the position and begin to see His Kingdom come and His will be done on earth as it is in heaven, now!

There is a price to pay. As a forerunner one can be mocked and criticized, but do not be afraid, there are plenty revolutionary martyrs that paid the price for their ideals. It is normal to have casualties in battles. Like Gideon chose the 300, those who were afraid were let go. To be an overcomer one must die to his old self. The Lord had made it clear, “If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple.And anyone who does not carry their cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.” (Luke 14:26-27) When you join the army, you need to shave your head, change into uniform, obey orders, are you willing?

However, the Holy Spirit is encouraging us. We are the Kingdom people, the spiritual house being built with the living stones to become a dwelling in which God lives by His Spirit. We are also a river of the living water, full of love, joy, childlike purity, simplicity, vitality and the power of the Holy Spirit. Wherever this river flows the Kingdom of God is brought there also— to our loved ones, friends, neighbors, to the Chinese, non-Chinese and to the aborigines. In the desert of the church the oasis is appearing, and one is connecting to the other. The oasis is the family that God desires to have. We are saved! And the world also rejoices with us!

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Jesus Healing Room Testimony 1/12/19

By Sharon B.:

I am always blessed by the Jesus Healing Room. I have been coming on and off for the past at least 2.5 years.
The intercessors who give me prophetic prayers are true vessels of the Holy Spirit. I always received encouragement, revelation and guidance that helps me to elevate my Christian lifestyle.
The Lord wants us to move forward and develop so that we can edify His Kingdom. This Jesus Healing Room always helps me to grow spiritually and be enlightened to continue in God given destiny for His kingdom.

By: Angela J.:

I came no understanding a dream that I had after sharing with the prophetic team. They interpreted to the root cause conflict with my neighbor. I’m at peace and know that God is faithful. In Him I put my trust. I thank the team for their faithfulness and thank God for their obedience. Amen.

By Jessica C.:

Thank the Lord, through the prophetic prayer ministry to encourage me! The brother who prayed for me saw a vision where a butterfly broke out of its cocoon. It gave me a lot of comfort and encouragement. The prayers of Molica and church sisters also supports me. Thank God!

家书 1/17/2019: 基督教信仰的新认识 (III)

代价是要付的。作先锋有可能被笑、被批评,但不害怕,为理想而牺牲的革命先烈比比皆是。打仗有死伤是正常的,像基甸选兵,害怕的可以回去。要作得胜者,向自己死,向老我死。主早已明说,”人到我这里来,若不爱我胜过爱自己的父母、妻子、儿女、弟兄、姐妹,和自己的性命,就不能作我的门徒。凡不背着自己十字架跟从我的,也不能作我的门徒。” (路14:26-27)。当兵入伍需要剃光头、换军服,听命令,你愿意吗?

然而圣灵在鼓励我们,我们是天上的国民,是父神在地上用活石所建的灵宫,是满了爱与喜乐,像孩子般活泼、单纯、健康、带着圣灵大能的生命河。这生命河流到哪里,就要把天带到哪里,带给亲友、邻居,带给华人、非华人,带给原住民。教会沙漠中出现绿洲,绿洲与绿洲在相连,那绿洲就是神要的家,我们得救了! 世人也一同欢呼!

家书 1/17/2019: 基督教信仰的新认识 (II)

仇敌要破坏家,但神在找家。舊约裡,神在西乃山顯现; 会幕建好後神从会幕中说话; 直到新约,耶稣来,支搭帐幕在人间,名称为以马内利; 而到启示录末了仍说,”看哪,神的帐幕在人间,神要亲自与我们同在!” (啟 21:3) 这是父神的心。整个救赎有两方面: (1) 你我被救,成为活石; (2) 活石又被建造成为圣殿,是神能居住的灵宫 (彼前 2:5; 弗2:2)。戴冕恩牧师说, “神末世的军队不是将军,是父母; 不是士兵,是儿女; 不是枪炮,是神的同在。” 最重要的还是家,是关系,所以主一再叮咛说,”我赐給你们一条新命令,就是叫你们彼此相爱; 你们若有相爱的心,众人因此就认出你们是我的门徒了。” (约13:34-35) 又说,”使他们都合而为一,正如祢父在我里面,我在祢里面,使他们也在我们里面,叫世人可以信你差了我来。” (约17:21)

我们上过Bill Johnson的Leader Development Program,第一课就讲家 – 神国度的文化,第一就是家。近年来很多人在谈五重职事,那是对的,但我想,末世的教会不只要恢复五重职事,更基本的是恢复家。五重职事不是教会里的新组织、新头衔,乃是家中成熟的父亲、母亲、哥哥、姐姐。应该是先成为父母才作使徒、先知; 先是父母才作传福音的、牧师与教师,这样才对,家才健全,也才是神要的教会。

神的新酒要用新皮袋装,新酒是成为神的居所,神的家; 不再只是事奉、机构或学院。新皮袋是合神心意的看见,愿意被扩充,放下过去的骄傲、自卑、受伤、冒犯,孤儿心态、悖逆、脾气、我行我素、不与人合。甚至连头衔、职称也可以放下。那些没什么不好,只是在家中無此必要。我去儿子的家,他下了班回来,我没听过他太太或儿女叫他,”Doctor Hsu” 的。一个公司的CEO回到家,换下襯衫,捲起衣袖,帮忙带孩子、倒垃圾、换灯泡、煮菜,因为回到家他是父亲啊。当孩子们大了也学会分工,摆碗筷、收拾桌面、吸地,都有人做,这是家。我们是天父爸爸成熟长大的孩子,都懂事了,那就一起来建造一个快乐、荣耀的天父的家吧。今年的新年我想要給天父爸爸一个礼物,前些天和美津在交通时,我兴奋地告诉她,有了! 以前我曾給自己取一个别名叫”主爱”,今我要另取一个别名叫”建家”。以前高兴我是主所爱的; 今我立志,要为天父爸爸建立祂的家。我相信这是神对我及教会的托付,2013年克安通牧师就已经说过,”许多父亲与母亲会从这个教会产生。” 我相信这也是今天神对众成熟的教会的呼召。

费城Peter Smith牧师说过一个比方: 公路上有几条线,大半教会都走在”教会”线上,少数移动到”教会与国度”线,而更少人移动到”国度与教会”线。这与领袖的心胸有关,与我们对父神的认识有关。我看得很清楚,我已经在移动了,我也鼓励原住民领袖,要从”族群线”移动到国度线,鼓励台语牧师,要从”台语线”移动到国度线。”华人线”、”我的需要”线、”孩子为中心”线,都要移动,神所要的才是我们的追求。

这世代是我们兴起的时候了,”受造之物切望等候神的众子显出来” (罗8:19),我几乎能感受到地在震动,迫不及待盼我们长大! 今天黑暗与光明两国的争战已经白热化,教会必须参战,不可再沉睡,不可像青蛙在温锅里慢慢被煮死掉。末世的军队是父母、子女、与神的同在。属灵的联合国正在成形,进入命定,站好位子,去影响地上的政权!

家书 1/17/2019: 基督教信仰的新认识 (I)

家书 1/17/2019: 基督教信仰的新认识 (I)

对神的认识是一个渐进的旅程,两千年教会历史上是如此,在我信主的几十年亦然 。从無神论到信主作牧师; 从极端保守派,到经历灵恩,我一路在追求,看法在改变。天国好像人寻重价的珠宝,我不停地在找。有时像瞎子摸着石头过河,难免跌撞; 又像甜甜圈,被捏、被烤、被炸,再浇糖浆,香味才出来。这过程不容易,连自己也看不明白,但我终於从地洞裡鑽出来,拍拍满头的污泥,裡面湧出喜乐,别人看不懂…。我感恩今天我还活着,还有机会随着天上的鼓声,去奔神的旨意(希10:36),一切代价是值得的。当初美国西部开发时,平均每16英里死一个人,而今天加州是多么繁荣! 台湾开横贯公路,也多少人死伤,但今天遊览车一辆辆过去…。为了神所要的,死就死吧,您说呢?

神渐进的启示,到这世代是什么呢? 是祂的家。20年来,”回家” (或称家人同行) 正影响着列国,而最明显的就是2018年9月在IHOP Kansas City 的Convergence,及12月的Onething。Mike Bickle已宣布,Onething 是19年来的最後一次。另有好几个国家的教会也说不再办大型特会了,因为他们听见神说,”我不要特会,我要家。” 1982在埃及开罗,神用听得见的声音对Mike Bickle说过,”I am going to change the understanding of Christianity on the whole earth in one generation.” (我要在一个世代裡改变全地对基督教信仰的认识),而今天就是那个世代。教会不再是机构,是家; 不再是会友,是儿女; 重要的不是做什么,乃是是什么。英文较清楚,不是do sons,乃是be sons。儿子包括女儿,是继承产业的,因为神是我们的爸爸! 主耶稣在十架上所給的是家、是国度,比得救上天堂还多得多! 这是神的心意,不是我选祂,是祂选我; 是祂把我浸入一个身体,纳入一个家,而这个家还是皇家呢! 父亲是王,你我竟是公主、王子! 甜甜圈炸好之後将与天父同坐宝座,同掌王权,真不可思议啊! 这样的基督教信仰越看越明白,黑白变彩色,平面变立体,而今天就是那个世代。

其实这些亮光与启示都在圣经上,只是我们理解得太慢了。早在(赛66:1) 神就叹息,”天是我的座位,地是我的脚凳,你们要为我造何等的殿宇? 哪裡是我安息的地方呢?” 两千年来,我们听这个,听那个,建这个,建那个,到头来都只是人想的,还不是神要的。神要的很简单,不是组织,不是机构,不是会友, 是家。家有父母,有儿女,有爱,有秩序,有和乐。仇敌知道是神要的,所以牠百般破坏关系、破坏家庭、製造教会纷争,今天还全面混淆男女的性别,扭曲孩子们的自我认同。我们必须成为家,才能除滅魔鬼的作为; 父亲的心要转向儿子,儿子的心转向父亲,才能除去这地的诅咒(瑪4:6)。但放眼望去,两千年来连许多牧师都还在作孤儿,如何建立家? 江秀琴牧师有一天明白了,她说,”原来我也是个大孤儿,在作孤儿院院长! ” 孤儿是什么? 是缺乏父母,無父母就成为孤儿。教会不是缺乏教導,保罗说,”师傅雖有一万,为父的却是不多。” (林前4:15) 但我们想,谁够资格作父母啊? 一点也不错,没有父母是完全的,但有父母,孩子就有安全感,父母也不是每天决定我今天要不要作父母,都是心的问题(瑪4:6),心重要。

Egg Harbor Homecoming, December 2018

Egg Harbor Homecoming, December 2018

12/6-8/18 “Egg Harbor Homecoming” there was a total of more than 400 people registered, and about 40 First Nation people who came from all over the country, some flew, some drove. The Praise Tabernacle church in Egg Harbour, New Jersey was fully engaged in registration, meal preparations, and together with the neighboring churches also coordinated with pickups for so many from Philadelphia and other airports, they also arranged accommodations, and lead worship… None of us knew how to run a Homecoming meeting, we could only let God do it. As a result, God truly has done a great thing among us. We are full of cheers and joy:

(1) One of the First Nation sisters said with tears in her eyes that she had waited for this day for many decades.

(2) Another man told me that he had been to hundreds of meetings that the First Nation people were invited to, but most of the time the honoring was done superficially, but this time was different… Although he didn’t have enough money to come he came anyway, and it was totally worth it, he had no regrets.

(3) The cost to help the First Nation people to come had already exceeded $10,000 before the meeting, most of them had limited resources. There were four sisters of a prayer team from Oklahoma, their combined offering was only $75. I was sincerely touched. 

(4) An elderly Caucasian missionary couple who have served in the First Nation reserves for more than 20 years said that they themselves were greatly transformed this weekend. Many First Nation people and non-indigenous people all said that they had never seen a meeting like this…

(5) The repentance and asking for forgiveness among the tribal conflicts displayed before us on the stage moved us greatly… In this safe family of God the young people also voiced their deep longing for breakthrough, expressed their repentance of their arrogance toward the older generation, and two brothers sang a song asking the Holy Spirit to come, God’s anointing was so thick, they cried and we all cried with them…

(6) At the last session, a totally unexpected big event happened. A lady publicly knelt down and apologized to the Frist Nations. She is a descendant of President William Henry Harrison who was a well-known general that killed the first nation leader and prophet Tecumseh who was uniting all the First Nation groups at that time. There was a prophesy saying that when the descendants of Harrison appeared and publicly apologized to the First Nation, it would be the time that the First Nation peoples could be united and their hidden prophets would come out of hiding. The lady said that God moved her to come to this Homecoming, and at the meeting moved her to publicly apologize.

Still so much to share… Thanks be to all who participated in much labors and intercessions behind the scene, and many who gave monetary offerings sacrificially to make this gathering possible… Our good Dad knows and He will bless each one of us. 

Glory be to God and joy be to all of us that He loves so much…

12/11/18 Letter from Home: Egg Harbor 回家

12/11/18 Letter from Home: Egg Harbor 回家

12/6-8/18 “Egg Harbor 回家” 报名参加的,一共超过400人,原住民从各地飛来及開车来的,共约40位。Egg Harbor的Praise Tabernacle教会完全投入,负责註冊、饭食,其它教会也配搭接机、安排住宿、带领敬拜等。这次的聚集我们都不会,只是让神做,结果,神果真在我们当中做了很大的事,我们满了欢呼、喜乐: 

(1)  有原住民姐妹流淚说,她等这一天,已经等了好几十年了。
(2)  有一位男的跟我说,一般邀请原住民去的聚集,都只是表面上尊荣他们,作个样子,但这次”回家”真的不同。他来的路费还未凑足,但他来了,完全值得,没有後悔。
(3)   这次在聚会之前为他们付出的费用就超过一万元。原住民自己擁有的真的有限,有一Choctaw族的祷告团队四位姐妹,合在一起的奉献只能有75元,我很受感动。
(4)   一位在原住民部落作服事20多年的年长的白人宣教士说,这次聚集,他自己也被大大地改变。还有非原住民的,也很多人受感动说,从来没有见过聚会是如此运作的。
(5)   原住民族群之间的过節,台上彼此的认罪、饶恕,令我们無限感动。年青人也很有安全感地表达心声,有一位唱到带来圣灵很深的感动。
(6)   最末了一堂还有大事發生,一位年纪大的白人女士公開跪下向原住民道歉。她是William Henry Harrison總统的後代,Harrison是出名的将军,杀了原住民领袖及先知Tecumseh,因那位先知领袖在当时是连结所有原住民族群的。有预言说,当Harrison的後代出现,公開向原住民道歉时,原住民的族群才能团结,原住民的先知才会从隐藏中出来。这位女士说,这次是神感动她来,在会场中也感动她出来道歉的。

还有太多可分享的…。谢谢许多人参加,还有背後的祷告支持,以及金钱上的奉献, 主必记念报答。

Letter from Home:  Homecoming starts with me

Letter from home 11/21/2018:   Homecoming starts with me

Several members of our church went to IHOPKC Homecoming, including my second son Kiley. I asked a few of them to share two Sundays in the roll. Many shared that they were very moved by how closely the Homecoming people engaged with one another, and were hoping that the same could happen in our church. That day I also asked my son to share, and we engaged in a very deep conversation… 

He said, “I saw many couples in Homecoming are quite intimate with one another, but you and mom are not. Most of the time you are downstairs concentrating on your work and mom is upstairs playing with the game on her Ipad, you don’t talk to each other much, sometimes even confrontational. Your tone of voice is not very nice, I believe there must be some deeper root issues….”

I said, “May be mom has a higher expectation of me, she feels I am not capable enough, I did not clean the garage for a long time, roof needs repairs for a while…, so I am not good enough as a husband.”

He said, “No, no, no, that’s not it, it is your heart. Mom does not feel you cherish her enough. You are very focused on your own thing, didn’t spend time with mom intentionally. Mom actually is quite accommodating to you. I feel you should treat mom better, loving mom is your responsibility as a husband, Homecoming must starts with you.”

We talked for a long time that day, finally he said, “To share about Homecoming, I actually don’t know what to say. “

I said, “Why don’t you just share what we talked about today on Sunday, just be honest, it will be okay. What you are sharing is exactly right – for the church to become a home, it needs to start with me. Luckily I am still alive and there is chance for me to change. “

He said, “Once I shared it in public, you need to start working on it, right?!” I said, “I will, I promise. “

After our conversation he asked me, “Was it too heavy for you? ” I said, “No, I accept it 100%, I am willing to change.”

I told him, before I went aboard after graduation from university, I can’t recall exactly what happened, my father admonished me and I was not very happy. Then my father said, “You are an adult now, ready to go aboard, there will not be many people in the society that will speak truth to you, they will criticize you behind your back, for those who does speak truth to you, you need to treat them as friends.”

We chatted about something else, I said, actually I have made progress, many people in the church had made improvement also… Then he asked me, “Have I made progress?” I said, “Yes! You have matured a lot. You are bold and have wisdom, able to speak the truth to your dad, that is not easy, but you spoke well and I didn’t feel offended, I can accept it completely.” After that, I embraced him and said, “Based on what my dad told me, you are the one that spoke the truth to me, I will treat you as my friend.” He smiled and said, “That was better than I thought.”

The purpose of sharing this story is to tell you that I am still in the process, but I am willing to continue to take the steps forward, not to disappoint the Lord, nor disappoint Kiley. The real Homecoming starts with me, it is not acting superficially, but come from the heart, this is what Kiley tried to point out. 

It is not easy to be a family, intimacy between husband and wife is not easy, but for Kiley’s sake I want to be a good husband. Someone said, “The best gift a father can give to the children is to love their mother.” Agree? Love comes from the heart. It is not only presence in the body but absence in heart, only obligations and function as husband and wife, but no engagement in the hearts. Homecoming starts with oneself, are you willing? This is Abba Father ‘s heart desire, and the longing of our children. 

I remember many years ago, Papa Gideon and Papa Demian’s church taught on relationship between husband and wife in adult Sunday school. They told me, they traveled away from church so much, so when they returned home they had to take the makeup classes on husband and wife relationship, because that is the foundation!

So, how do I love? What did Kiley point out? What is love? 

I thought I had love, but my son reminded me, love is for me to come out of my boxes, to think on other’s behalf, to show tenderness, to be tender to the other is to be considerate for the other. What is love? Love is not selfish, not boast, not self-seeking, not easily angered, is patient, kind…. (1Corinthians 13:4-7) talks about this. Can I ask you, how many did you fail? I failed in almost everyone, I am ashamed! 

I thought I did pretty well, and didn’t expect, to receive a failing grade from my son! Are we willing to improve toward that? Your wife is waiting, your husband is waiting, your children are waiting – hoping and waiting for the parents to change. Some couples fought most of their lives and ended up in divorce, the children not only were disappointed at the parents, they became disappointed at God…. 

I know we can’t be perfect, but we can improve – today will be better than yesterday, and tomorrow will be better than today. I also hope we can be friends, tell me what is wrong with me in front of me, not behind me. I want to listen, I am willing to change. I believe what is impossible with man, is possible with God… 

When we can be like that for each other, our children will be comforted and our Heavenly Father will say to the angels and all the saints, “See, that is my boy! My girl! “

 

 

 

Letter from Home: Four lanes on the highway

Letter from Home 11/23/18:         Four lanes on the highway
A few weeks ago, we had lunch with some leaders and intercessors in a Chinese restaurant, Pastor Peter Smith from Philadelphia said, our ministries are like riding on the highway. There are four lanes, with different levels of glory which has to do with our hearts and our mindsets: (1) The first lane is the church lane (2) The second lane is the church and Kingdom lane (3) The third lane is the Kingdom and church lane (4) And the fourth lane is the break down lane.

(1)  Most churches are driving on the first lane  focusing on their own needs – preaching, home visitations, children and youth programs, even  evangelism and community services are for the purpose of church growth, not having much to the Kingdom of God. I think 99% of the churches are on this lane, not to say there is anything wrong with this, except we are still children, only able to focus on our own needs,  and not quite ready to know the heart of Abba Father.

(2) A few churches slowly grow in maturity, understand more, begin to care about the Kingdom of God, and they gradually begin to shift to the church/kingdom lane.

(3) There are some churches which are mature  fathers and mothers, who really understand Daddy’s heart. They no longer care only about their own business, but care about the Kingdom of God. God’s desire becomes their pursuit. I think this is what the five fold ministries is about – The five fold ministries is not another church structure, or about titles, the difference is their heart and mindset – pastors focus more on caring for people, and the apostles and the prophets connect more with heaven and the things of the Kingdom.

(4) Finally, the break down lane is where the orphans are. They have yet to understand the Father’s love and don’t know how to be sons and daughters, or they may be those who are severely wounded and paralyzed, waiting for others to rescue and help.

Which lane is your church on? Ours is a family being united in the heart of God, moving from the church lane to the church/kingdom lane. As we drive toward the horizon, we realized our perspectives are broadened, our vision is changing, all of a sudden we can see the world like we have never seen it before, while we were in the first lane… ! I am free, I rejoice, I am so excited that I want to embrace the heavens and the earth…! Who can understand, how happy I am !!!

During the prayer meeting in the evening before Thanksgiving, Brother Mingway gave an excellent illustration! He said, “What I am thankful for this year is, in the past we were in a box, but now the box is open and spread out flat. We are still a church, but have entered into the Kingdom of God. This year, I have seen the process of this box being opened, I see Lisa, Angela, Bo Yan, Yanna, Yi Jiang… come out of the box one by one, even our children are growing, experiencing many things, and their attitude towards God is almost as mature as that of the adults … Like the cloud of witnesses, the church is a family maturing together in the Lord…

Sister Tina added, “We are a house of bread growing together, hand in hand, old and young, entering into Canaan the promise land… ” Sister Xiuduan said, “Jumping out of the box and entering into the Kingdom, now I not only love our own church but also love other churches. Churches need to open up the box in order to accomplish what God desires.” Sister Lini said, “After coming out of the box God has taken me to a higher ground to see things from a new perspective. I realize that trials and difficulties are part of His process for me to grow, so I no longer fear! People that I used to want to stay away from, now I am able to love… “

In the past year the church has been through a lot, but what we ended up with is peace, unity, love and simplicity, my heart is filled with gratitude. Everyone is changing and maturing,  including myself. Believe it or not, right now is my happiest moment in my 37 years as a pastor…

Everything is nice and calm outside. It is Thanksgiving, no one goes to work,  hardly any car on the road, I just saw the morning sun rising behind the trees and through the leaves, beaming into my eyes. I can hear the geese calling outside, while inside, the heater is making a little quiet sound. I lit a candle on the desk, the tiny flame flickering, a little green grass in a glass cup standing next to a piece of brown fossil rock by the window, bringing out the color of the green bushes right outside the window. I love candles, especially when Molica is not with me, the candle accompanies me. One thing special about candles is that it’s flame moves, alive, it keeps talking to me. I am also talking to the Lord, “Today is Thanksgiving, Lord, what gift can I bring to You? Ah, only a heart which is full of gratitude and love to You…. “